morning went over to her house.. den ate breakfast dere after that she went to pay her phone bill ler bah den idk why she keep calling me korkor i don like it.. well.. she happy can ler lor.. after dat took bus to sakura ler.. lunch time.. runner with sheryl i ji tao sian diao ler.. i know she confirm jealous der but dear.. i never even talk to her.. i care bout you dats why i ask her go 2nd lvl den i no nid to see her at all.. but see you smiling wif everyone of dem der.. den im glad that you are happy bah.. after that breaktime very hungry.. but no mood to eat at all lor.. idk why. but she took 1 cup noodle and we both share share lor.. hahas new staff came.. 2 guy 1 girl.. and please i don even know that girl never even see her or talk to her.. you keep saying she chio she chio.. i don even care lahh can.. i only care bout you lor.. i dont even wanna know who is she.. nvm lor.. you happy can ler.. after dat cashier for dinner count money till siao ler.. hehs den went down you told me that ur dad is fetching you.. but u never tell me.. only after i came down den u tell me.. i got thing wan tell you der lor den nvm bah.. since you so long never go home early ler.. after that i walk alone down to west coast lor wanted to sit by there till morning der.. but she ask me to faster go home online :) so i online ler bah.. budden.. online ler u didnt even reply me.. sadd =( nvm lor.. since you so buzy don disturb you ler bah.. saw you featured him again.. guess you still cant forget bout the past bah and you kept saying all those thing to me again.. idk why idk how you told me you cant even answer me a simple question like this i really dont know what to say already.. stomach is getting worst and worst lor.. dunno why everyday pain der den went downstair playground to sit ler.. on song.. look at the sky blahblahblah cant get to sleep.. but fell asleep at the playground for 1 hour +.. woke up around 4 am.. continue listen song till morning go home ler..
sat ~
morning went home to take a shower after that off to her house ler bah.. dont know why suddenly see her felt like crying.. its the first time i cry infront of a girl lor.. tried to hold my tears.. but cant.. still kept crying.. heart aching.. idk what to do ler i dont know where i stand in her heart now.. shes still thinking bout him.. im like a replacement of him only ? i really dont know what to do.. i will never let go der lor.. you said you are sorry just now.. you dont mean to say all those thing ytd.. i hope you really mean it.. and wont do it again bah.. after that i took bus to see doc ler.. the medicine is like OMGWTFBBQ lahh -,- so many can eat till die lor.. lols nvm bah went westmall yellow shop to find thing just now but got too much design ler X_x dont know what to buy.. next time den buy bah.. hahas after dat took bus home ler.. missing herrrr now ._. but well shes working for the day i wanna fetch her after work.. but she doesnt want me to.. sad.. ill just rot at home bah.. nothing else i can do..
the knot between me and my parent will never be untie der.. i don see myself having a mother or father now.. they don even care bout me.. even shouting at me over small thing this has been going on for the past few year ler lor i hav enuff of it ler lor.. i hate them.. esp my mum.. sigh.. lj mum i got.. fuck this man.. somehow i felt myself very pathetic.. parent don even wanna support me ler hav been supporting myself for the past years they don even know how i feel.. never give me money still wan take money from me ? wtff lah.. i hate them dear is the only person im left with now ler..